A & B

A and B are two of my friends, and I think they're in love. They haven't told one another, but they have told me. I kinda love them both, but definitely not in the same way.

A is a nerd. He works hard, plays videogames, and reads comic books. We went on holiday to Croatia together. We got into a state and he told me, in an awkward and roundabout way, that he thinks he loves her. At the time I dismissed him and told him it was cheesy. I wish I hadn't.

B is German. She used to do hip-hop dancing as a girl and has big boobs. I don't know much else about her, but we get along well. She pities me and my nonesistant love life. I act aloof but I like it when she makes me feel better about myself. We got into a state at an after-exams party and she told me that she is in love with him. I told her that it must feel incredible to say it aloud, and that I was happy for her.

A and B are a odd couple. They hit one another and say that they hate on another. They joke that they are going to break up and that they would like to sleep with other people. A and B cancelled their trip across America this year. I think A believes that I would steal his girlfriend if given the chance. I find it funny that he genuinely thinks im capable of  that.

I'm a bit wierd, and sometimes I like to think about their relationship. The young student couple, terrified that work, time, and life will conspire together to end their happiness. I like to think about my own role. As a hopeless romantic I know it isn't my place to tell either one how the other feels. As a friend I would like to help them overcome their anxieties. Most of the time, though, I don't know what to think. I hope it works out for them. I think it will.

I felt better today. Maybe it wasn't love I needed, just a lovely 13 hour sleep.

Then I went to the set of an X-Factor type show being filmed by the student Television Station. I do a bit of camera work and running to help out my friend, who is producing the show. It wasn't too much of a chore. I got to see how talented some Students are, and I like to observe how a TV Station works.


In fact, I thought I could do a better job than the effeminate gay boys who run the Station. That's why when I came home I started penning ideas for a comedy sketch show I had in mind. Since I've never written anything before (apart from this blog and a handful of awful and pretentious poems) I asked my friends to help me write. Even if it is terrible, in the end I can only learn from the experience.

Speaking of writing, I have a longer and more personal blog entry planned for tomorrow. I've just got to promise myself that I will do it.

I've been partying fairly hard the last few days. We threw a house party yesterday. Such good feelings to have no immediate work to do and lots of drugs to take. I'm still feeling down though, and I don't know why. I think I need some love in my life.

I've also been listening to a lot of Broadcast recently. Flying Lotus posted their stuff on twitter. I'm sad that the singer  (Trish) died last year.

Woop!

Woop! Exams are over! Partay!

That's pretty much all I have to say today. The exams went averagely, but whatever, they're over now.

Uhh.. my head is spinning from all the revision! I now know everything about American foreign policy, escalation in Vietnam, and the causes and consequences of 1968...

Except I can'tt remember any of it. Whatever. I give up.

I forgot to post yesterday. I can't remember that I did anything particularly interesting. Never mind.

Today I revised, spoke to my parents, and went for another short run. I've been having sharp pain in my calves, so I figure that more frequent low-intensity exercise will help. I started with 10 minutes of warm-up exercise (high knees, power jumps, heel kicks, sidesteps, short bursts of speed, etc.), then a 15 minute jog, and finished with 10 minutes on my housemate's exercise bike.

One more day to do revision tomorow, then my first exam, then another day revising, then my last exam... Woo! I can do this!

Today I woke up late and felt particularly anxious most of the day. I tried to revise, but couldn't bring myself to focus long enough for any productivity to happen. I can't wait for the exam period to be over already.